I don't really have any real friends...

Yes, you read that right. I don't really have real friends anymore. There was a time that I used to, but that time was back in the 90s for me. Personally, I got rid of social media back in 2016, and just in the nick of time at that.

Have you ever noticed that people like to sling the "F" word around like it's going out of style? There are so many examples I can use, but I'm not going to waste your already limited time. Nowadays people have no time, or attention spans. I hate to be the bearer of bad news, but you and I both know it's true. So many people are so caught up in the realm of the internet and social media that they forsake the "IRL" version of you sometimes. They tend to be socially and emotionally unavailable.

Allow me to expand on this if you are willing to stick it out and really read into what I am saying here. It doesn't really matter whether you read this, or not really because this is my platform where I find solace and if you did read this, of course I would be eternally grateful. Will I cry if you don't find this interesting, or if you aren't willing to read this? No, not a chance in hell. So, if you're ready let's get on with it shall we?

If you have been reading through my blog, or skimming rather, you will have discovered that I have been through some stressful, traumatic events, and have been using this blog as my sanctuary to discuss topics and things that are relevant to me. Of course, I hope they are relevant to use as well as that is kind of the point in having a digital audience. Most people nowadays are so caught up with the minutia of the past, and the future that they don't give two craps about the present. At least in my experience here in the so called, "Sunshine State." Not so sunny when people are like zombies, but before I get into that let me continue expanding.
When I got rid of my social media it is as if I got rid of my identity. Like I disappeared off the face of the earth to many of the people in my community. It's kind of sad to think that, just because I don't have a Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, TikTok, or whatever else is the popular social media platform of choice, that I am out of sight and out of mind to my family and friends. Had it not been for the advent of the telephone and short messaging service (SMS) I'm pretty sure I'd be dead to them. If you don't believe me, go ahead and get rid of your social media and then come back to this blog and comment your experience. I bet you it would be similar to mine, and if not, you truly have real family and friends that give a darn about you. You can proudly sling the "F" word around because at least in your neck of the woods it is not going out of style.

Back to the zombies thing, yeah, people are so glued to their cell phone screens, watching YouTube, TikTok videos, pornography, streaming, and anything you can imagine in 2022 as if nothing else matters in the whole wide world. Am I judging these people? Yes... and no.... Yes, I am judging those who want to throw the "F" word in my directions, yet their actions extremely fail to measure up. No, I am not judging them because I own a smart phone and I use it to do a myriad of things myself as well, but the difference between me and the digital zombies are the fact that I have separated myself and allowed myself to have space between the real world and the digital world. More on that in upcoming blog posts, you will want to stay tuned for that, because I will be going in depth into my daily routine of mindfulness meditation and yoga.

For now, I want to continue to lay into the fact that I am praying for the day that I actually have real authentic and genuine family and friends. In this post-pandemic and war times, it seems like it is every man for themselves, oh and not to mention that everyone is on drugs. Not everyone, obviously, but in general in America it may just be that 9 out of 10 people are doing some kind of drug, be it prescription, or recreations. Again, I won't go into detail because I don't want to bore you with what we all already know. I am simply frustrated with the fact that I can't find decent people who don't just casually throw the "F" word around and then treat you like you're not really there. In other words, it's highly annoying when people will only text and call you when it's on their time, or when they want something, while you are the person who will always go out of your way to make time for them because you truly believe in what a real friend is. A simple google search of "Real Friend" will probably bring you to this definition and article:

"A real friend is someone that you can rely on. You know that they will keep their plans with you. You know that you can rely on them to show up for you when you need it. Real friends are people that have proven they will show up for you in the past and will continue to do so because you are a priority to them." (Killoren, Caitlin)

Yeah, I had to do that. I needed to really let that sink in for a minute, and not just for my sake, but maybe for your sake too. Maybe someone needs to see this, and really reevaluate whether, or not they are being a true and good friend. As I am still awaiting a text from a so-called friend who mentioned asked me what my plans were as they had some time off for several days. It’s been 3 days so far since the last text. Personally, that kind of stuff rubs me the wrong way and is something that I have decided to not allow to break me.

It hurts, for I am still human, but when you grow up neglected, and socially ostracized you kind of become numb to it anyway. This isn't my first rodeo, and I don't expect it to be my last. For now, though I am continuing on with my life and seeking new and present people to bring into my circle and into my life. I will no longer allow people to try to slam the "F" word in my face and then treat me as if I'm a ghost. I am worthy of people who value me and my time.

I hope you have someone or find someone in your life who gives a darn about you in ways that make you feel valued and appreciated, you truly deserve it. I wish you well and hope you take care on this fantastic journey we call life. Besides what would Jesus do?

Until next time...

NorthBoundWriter
(Zeno Matsumoto)
www.northboundwriter.com

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Longing For The North