"Do it yourself for your mental health."
When was the last time you did something for yourself? It doesn't matter if it is big or small, expensive or cheap. When was the last time you let yourself explore yourself? For more ideas on DIY and Mental Health, check out this website called Self-Love Rainbow. This is an affiliated link and I will receive a small commission if you happen to purchase something from the site.
Do it yourself for your mental health. It's got a nice ring to it. Have you ever considered doing things for yourself for your mental health? There's an old saying, "Idle hands are the devil's playthings."
Over the years I've never really paid that much attention to that saying, why? Because I was too busy doing so many other things that I didn't have time to pay it any attention. It was only until tragedy struck and I fell into a depression.
If it wasn't for that traumatizing event I wouldn't be here writing writing and developing this blog. That event turned everything I knew about my world upside down. Actually, come to think of it, it's the second main traumatizing event that has happened to me. In my previous blog posts I have already mentioned it and going forward I will continue mentioning it until it no longer serves me to do so. I figure for this therapy project that's just how I need to deal with things.
Yes, I was Baker acted. It was 72 hours of pure hell. Maybe one of these days, I'll post a short story about my experience on the blog. I'm not sure yet. But it's not just the fact that I got Baker acted, it's the fact that it was so traumatizing that it disrupted my life to the point I became homeless. Months later I'm back at my mom's, and we are slowly trying to meet each other where they are as my mom is in her mid-fifties and I my early-thirties.
Being homeless showed me just how much the devil loves his play things. Again, this blog is a safe place and is in no way meant to disrespect, or diminished anyone's life or lifestyle choices. In my personal experience, living homeless you tend to get bored. It is the worse thing that could possibly happen to a human. My idle hands hand nothing to do so the devil would put all types of thoughts in my head so to speak. Devil, or not having nothing to do is boring. Boredom is the devil if we're being honest.
Now you're probably wondering, if you are homeless don't you have a lot of things you need to be doing to get out of the streets? Yes, and I did, but I'd like to remind you that I was homeless during the pandemic. There were not a lot of resources, or if there were, they were very limited. So a lot of times I'd end up waiting for responses to the resources that I had applied for. Again, idle hands, and me spinning my thumbs.
It's not all that terrible though. The silver lining of this post is the fact that since having all that time on my hands I had the opportunity to go through the complexities of my memories and the shit storm that has been my life. I'm not sad, but I'm not happy either. I'm just neutral about things nowdays. It could be the therapy sessions helping me to see things clearly, or I have exhausted all my energy on caring that I have been a depressed wreck.
If anything though after not doing things for so long and trying to enter the work force again was horrible. Dealing with post traumatic stressing while trying to work is really difficult. If you're able to manage it without medication then you are a super human and I'd like to meet you to learn your ways. For me I was in Colorado for most of my homeless stint and some in Alaska where the weed is legalized. I prefer therapy and marijuana to remedy the symptoms. I figured since I am not really comfortable in the work force I might as well do what I'm good at: creative writing.
I figured I might as well become an internet blogger, and share my story with the world and it's beautiful people. I also like that it's really therapeutic to write without judgement. There are so many possibilities to what I can do with writing. That helps calm my anxiety and it's free! With all this inflation and global tragedies, I could use a win even if it's a small win.
To conclude, I think it's important to discover a hobby or skill that you like to do. It can be literally anything. Who knows? Maybe it could be turned into a profitable business. You won't know until you find out for yourself in your own time. Trust me, take your time and do it for you. I'm learning to start loving myself. If you don't love yourself then how can you love all of life? I hope this blog post finds you wherever you are in your stage of things.
Thank you all so much for reading.
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